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History.....here it comes again.

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Have we not learned from the past? Do we not write and publish to share the news and immortalize the events? In watching a new show on Amazon, I am reminded that the world sees history repeat itself regularly. And yet we don't learn. We are in the midst of a civil rights movement that we've seen before. I'm watching Good Girls Revolt. It's about the civil rights movements of the late 60s and how they were handled from the newsroom of a major New York publication. One of the stories they are breaking open is the FBI inflation of violence number relating to the Black Panther Party. The points and counterpoints that are highlighted sound an awful lot like those relating to the current Black Lives Matter movement. I am pro-law enforcement. However, I do agree that the bad apples need to be eliminated from the industry. Most officers are good people, they want to help. Many are black, so when they are dispatched to a black lives matter protest, they are ostraci

Chilled to the core...frozen.

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Today, I read a blog post that froze me in my tracks. It outlined every single aspect of my daily battle with anxiety. Some days, I feel like I can take on the world. Other days, I can't even handle making my way to the kids room to wake them up for school. My son has missed school because of my inability to cope with the world. I work from home most of the time because I can work with people through email, and facebook, and accomplish things with words in silence that I'd never manage in person.  Some days, I'm somewhere in between. I'm neither non-functioning or 110%. I'm anxious, and anti-social for no reason. There isn't some impending event, or tragedy on its way, there are no deadlines triggering it. But I'm on edge. One event can push me in either direction. I can go from mostly okay to being unable to breathe or see clearly because I had to slam on my breaks in traffic or the kids shouted at their toys one time too many.  An

New to me

We've struggled financially for years, barely holding it together. But we keep getting small breaks that will eventually come together to be financial stability, then financial success. Today, we made the choice to purchase a refurbished computer for my work. I do 3 jobs, and I have been using my husband's computer, which isn't designed to carry the weight of 2 active profiles. I'd type a paragraph, and 30 seconds later, it was still in the 3rd word. It was time for a change. I spend upwards of 10 hours a day on the computer between my jobs, not including Netflix while I crochet. I wonder how much of that time is spent waiting for the computer to catch up with me? But the most irritating part of the transition is having to go through and remember or reset all of my passwords. Everything was saved to the old computer, and now, I'm having to resave all the passwords for 3 different forms of employment. Soon to be 4 different forms. But I like challenges, and I